there has been constant drama with a few of my friends involved. it has been really taking its toll on me. i have had a few asthma attacks and a panic attack and a constant headache. i may end up losing a friend. it looks highly likely. i just cannot handle it. i have been told through much of my life that i am judgmental and critical and that i am mean. it is true, really. but i can't be close with people that i don't trust, respect...and that don't care about that fact, somehow. that is the thing that is the most incredible to me. even though i tell her that i don't know if i can handle anymore of this, that i may be done, she just sort of changes the subject.
ok. i am super hungry. must. get. snack. mmmmmm.