|just wanted to let you know that i am feeling better today. still a bit out of it, for example, i thought it was tuesday or wednesday (notice the "or")not sure what the hell is up with that. the nice comments meant so much to me. it is strange to say, because i think in a lot of ways, i am really confident, but i worried about the super negative crybaby post after i wrote it that people would not want to read it, would see into my soul and see something bad and dark. and in the end, that part of me...the girl that was always new, foreign, funny accent-having, brother's clothes wearing that had to act aloof, if not mean, to distract from her small stature and lack of self-defense skills that had nothing anyone would want. being smart wasn't a benefit then. being able to draw wasn't either. and that was really all i had to offer. and when i get sick enough, tired enough, i lose my grip on who i am, and feel like i have fallen into a pit. i wonder now if admitting to feeling like that and moving on will make it go away someday. or if that girl will always be there. somewhere. |
anyway, i got a lot done today. i skeined up 10 bobbins. 11? jumbos and spun a few skeins to boot. and did some painting. really pretty, too.
oh, also, i was watching "6 degrees" tonite and there was a dude called "the puncher" that was going up to different dudes and sucker punching them in the face and then when he was caught, they realized that he was punching all of the dudes that had screwed his wife. so one woman saw it in the newspaper and found out that her husband was one of the men that had been punched for screwing the wife. so not cool. but funny. the puncher.