|i am having a really hard time getting up. i have stuff that has to get out today and i have just now gotten my coffee and pep pill. i am so tired. my mind has been racing with all of the things i want to make and do, but the body is just not cooperating. it is a funny thing, on lupus group online i notice that people make comments that lupus sucks, or chronic fatigue sucks, or whatever. i consider it to be a part of who i am. it is strange, when i really think about it. i have always felt that way about all of my various maladies, that they just are a part of me, just like the parts that i like. is that a healthy way to think? i dunno. i never think of any of my issues as things that will ever go away. it just is a part of me and i don't really judge it beyond that. it just is.|
regardless, the trip to LA really pooped me out. any trip or event tends to put me in a tailspin. that part of me is frustrating. it keeps me from traveling or participating in things i would like to be a part of. i am always in fear that i will be too sick and have to ditch out, which happens more often than not.
last night i kept waking up with a migraine, and this morning, too, so i guess this is the fallout from last night. i feel scrambled and tired. i figured i would moan about it a bit.
okay, getting up. getting going. wish me luck.