27 September 2007

6 shower day

headfirst sleebing
man, i had a bad run. the last week or so i have just been feeling like poo. yesterday, worse and today, really bad. i am not exactly sure what the deal was. i did a bit of snooping on a new site i found called www.butyoudontlooksick.com that basically deals with all kinds of things that we deal with...at first, i thought it was just the lady problems that were making me flare up, i guess that is pretty normal in all of the maladies i have, but it got really bad. i had the sweats, the chills, heebie jeebies, i am not sure if i had a bad batch of patches. i ended up taking a shower, sitting down and drying off, getting dressed and back into bed and then basically getting back into the shower. by the 6th time, i took a chill pill (literally) a pain pill, put new patches on and was so exhausted that i sat down in the shower. i am not sure what it was that helped, but by the time i got out, i felt human, was able to watch ugly betty with jake and go online! wha?

i am super behind in getting any work done, getting orders out, returning and checking my email. it is beyond frustrating. i know i can only do what i can do, but it doesn't change the fact that it drives me crazy. when i can't even get myself somewhat under control with medications, i really start to freak out. i have been more emotional than i usually am, i am sure due to hormones, but still, when i don't do anything, not even things i enjoy...don't read a book, knit, talk on the phone, make something...anything, it just drives me crazy. i don't wanna whine anymore, i just wanted to vent a bit.

jake is so sweet to me. he keeps asking what he can do, what he can get, what can he make...meanwhile, i haven't even done a minimum of housework, cooked dinner, scooped litterboxes, nothing. i barely can get out of bed and take a shower. i am too tired to make a cup of coffee. he is just so kind. he never makes me feel guilty. he acts like it is crazy for me to think i should help out around the house, or do anything more than lie in bed all day. i don't know that i could work as hard as he does, come home and do whatever needs to be done and still be so nice and sweet. i don't think i could. i love you jakie. you is the best. you my flowa.
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jake and izzy sleebing

okay, gotta check some emails. to-morrow, as jake always says, i will feel better.

mwah!
n.

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posted by natasha @ 10:20 PM  8 comments

24 September 2007

oh me aching 'ead.

this will be short, i have been fighting off a migraine for the last 5 hours or so.

i got a few new yarns done and updated www.luxe.etsy.com, and i will be adding tons more stuff over the week, so please check in as often as you fancy. i have some lovely soft neckywarmers and scarves, some of my creatures, some buttons, fiber and of course some yarns. so. go. check it out.

i have to pack up orders to-morrow, do some updating, and some dyeing. shannon told me she has been doing some sun dyeing and it has been really warm and gorgeous here, so i think i will give that a shot. i haven't done any in ages. shameful.

last night (i don't think i blogged this yet), i didn't sleep, hence the headache, i assume, but izzy ended up in between me and peeps, i moved her a bit to see what peeps would do, you know, peeps, the cat hating cat, and she woke up and started aggressively grooming izzy and then went back to sleep! she did at one point put her feet against izzy like she would kick her off the bed, but still. that is a big deal. and kahlo let me drag her up onto the bed to lay on me for a bit and she purred away and drooled a bit. she usually is all over me all the time, especially at night i have all of the cats up here, but since izzy, no one but peeps, who is just taking advantage of no other cats. and pavel has been avoiding us, and he is now starting to come up on the bed. i hate it because he has no relationship with the other cats (although he really seems interested in izzy) and is so close to jake, but has been staying off of the bed at night.

i am going to attempt to just lay here and veg out because i am seeing double. so.

mwah.
n.

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posted by natasha @ 10:02 PM  0 comments

3:15 a.m. already?

i was too tired to do really anything today. i think the last few days i overdid it a bit and i have still been on a strange sleep schedule with the kitten, who is at the moment sitting on the computer so that she can suck on my hand. somehow i am able to type, so i am letting her. it helps her fall asleep.

izzy 7 weeks
so for any of you cat people out there, i pose a question...we have one cat, peeps, who pees everywhere (and sometimes poops, too.) we got our youngest cat pavel as a tiny baby like izzy and he has always been fantastic about using the box, and kahlo, peeps' sister, is also really good. is there a way to insure that izzy won't pick up peeps' bad behaviors? she has taken really well to litter training, and basically, we keep her on the bed with us, or let her run around supervised, she is too little to be on her own, but i worry that our pee smelling carpet with tempt her. but again, the other two cats don't ever do anything like that, and pavel was a little fella. if anyone has advice or even knows any good sites or books on it, i would love it.
www.luxe.etsy.com

otherwise, not much, just crazy kittenland here, and kahlo, the one that snuggles with me all the time, is still mad at me and instead of all the cats on the bed with me all the time...just izzy and peeps. makes me sad. i always tell kahlo that she is my BFF, but she holds a grudge. i am a rather jealous person, i imagine i would be pissed off, too. and i hold a grudge. i like to think i am better now than i used to be, although sometimes i just see someone for what they are and i am not mad, i just don't want anything to do with em. so. okay, i am going to post some photos of izzy and what i have been working on. i WILL do updates all week. i have tons of stuff. some awesome halloween yarns and then some fancy ones i am wanting to keep. so.
new luxe.etsy.com yarns for halloween and more!

good morning to ya. i will drink your coffee in your absence. it isn't right to waste good coffee.
xo
n.

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posted by natasha @ 3:11 AM  0 comments

19 September 2007

shiiiiver me timbers!!!!

flight of the conchords cracks me up!
happy talk like a pirate day, all. additionally, happy 21st birfday barbe! woot!
so guess who has been using the litterbox? izzy! i am very excited about it. now, to get her off of the bottle.

i took one of my pep pills today again in order to get out of bed. yesterday, i got up, izzy wanted to be fed and was fiercely attempting to eat my hand, so i gathered up my coffee cup and other dirty dishes, plus izzy and went to the kitchen. i dodged a pile of cat puke and then slipped on what i think was water from pavel splashing around in the water dish. not sure. anyway...i landed in the hurdle jumping position, smashed a mug, cut my thigh in two places with teeny shards of it and scared the crap out of myself and izzy, who i was clutching against my shoulder. let me add that in my family...okay, my mom and brother (sorry josh), when we fall down...something usually gets broken. in fact, i can't remember the last time i had a mishap that did not involve a broken something. in this case, mug. hee. anyway, i got banged up but didn't even get a bruise! and i am the bruisy type. so, i think i landed on my right hand because it has been hurting more than the usual fibro stuff, but otherwise, no worries.

yesterday i worked on some halloween yarns and today worked on more buttons and then my pill wore off on me and i felt like i had been beaten. that is the huge downside. you feel so so tired when it wears off. and jittery. a bad combination. anyway...here are some of the photos, although i have more to show. i tried sanding some, but they didn't look that great for the amount of work that was involved, really.
new buttons for luxe

xo
n.

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posted by natasha @ 9:26 PM  2 comments

17 September 2007

watch out! she's got teef!

so. i know, i have been absent. everyone knows why. a combo of lupus/cfs/fybro/migraines....and....ISOBEL. she eats my energy for breakfast. again, if you have children that are alive and have thrived...my hat is off to you. i am not wearing a hat, but you know, my hair hat. my kitten is off to you, anyway. so, i had a hectic weekend which involved errands on friday, the in-laws for dinner, they were gracious enough to come over here because izzy had been left alone for a few hours whilst i ran my errands and she doesn't travel so well anymore. she is so fast. on the upside, she ran around downstairs and played the whole time we ate dinner, so she was pooped that night. i had a bad-ish headache and jake let me sleep in on saturday, which i hugely appreciated and then i went out to meet shannon (aka the knitgrrl), andi and lovely heather who unleashed her enormous stash of yarn on me (woot woot!) i felt guilty giving her two batts and charlotte sometimes (the pink bird with the white scarf, which is good because cleveland is cold!), so i will have to make her another package. all of the yarn is still sitting in bags in my bedroom, but i did look through all of it and ooh and aah. we met at ikea which is normally a bit more than an hour away in no traffic, i had a headache when i woke up still, but we had afun time and then by the time i was leaving, it was getting hurty. the traffic was backed up bumper to bumper all the way home, so it took me an extra 1 1/2 hours to get home. with the bad migraine. i actually got the panicky "i am stuck in a car an indeterminate amount of time away from home and i keep almost vomiting and i want to cry" thing going on. that night i totally conked out. let me add that i scored at ikea. i got these gigantor plastic bags...that thick plastic like the bags that mailmen use...from ikea that have handles and deep zippers, literally i could fit inside of the one, and the other is slightly smaller. i had to fight not to buy a bunch of em, but i can now take my stuff to the post office without having to attempt to hold the post office bag up over my shoulders to keep it from dragging. although, after my last deliveries of packages that made me have to do two trips, i think i will get pick up. i just don't want to leave it outside, ya know?

so sunday, i did groceries and target and the pet store and then walmart because the pet store didn't have the formula that izzy prefers...nay, the only one she will eat. so i spent the whole day out and today i woke up at 3pm and got no work done because i was so exhausted. so. to-morrow i am excited to do some of the halloween yarns and work on some buttons and get stuff listed. i have a stack of stuff. i feel like a jerk. i haven't added much stuff in ages. gah!

wanna see some of the new neckywarmers with the handmade buttons?
neckywarmers for luxe.etsy

not much else, i loaded up some new photos on flickr of izzy. she moves really fast, so they aren't great, but they are cute...
isobel 5 1/2 weeks old

she is all about getting into everything and if she is awake when i attempt to check my emails, she will run across the keyboard to hear the bong sound that the mac makes, swats at the screen and tries to eat the cord. the battery is dead on this laptop, so if she eats the cord, we have to buy a new one. so. if i move her or tap her on the snoot, she just goes right back to it, in a second. bad bad monkey. i actually lost my temper last night and just closed the computer. i would be a bad mom. she has pooped and peed on the floor by herself, which is good. we are trying to get her to use the litterbox, but she isn't into it. i got the feline pine stuff because you aren't supposed to use regular litter lest they eat it. i may need to get something different. additionally, i cannot get her to eat off of a spoon or saucer. she will only drink her milk and out of a bottle. really soon, she needs to get onto the 2nd step formula to get enough nutrition. i am mixing the two to get her used to it. wish us luck. all kittens, all the time.

i will take photos of some of the new knits and yarns. i have some ideas for some scarves with handmade felt roses. maybe fabric. i have loads. i dreamed about it.
eeeeee.

xoxo
n.

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posted by natasha @ 11:07 PM  4 comments

11 September 2007

now we're flying!

just a quickie. last night...NO SLEEP. none. okay, maybe an hour or something. i got up and showered and spent the entire day packing orders and swaps and things. mostly orders(shocking since i have barely added anything to the site. shameful!) anyway, i still have to do a couple more that popped up and i will have to get that done before i can go and mail em and go to the art supply and see my pal gabe. weee! i missed the farmers market. i was just too busy.

i feel like a zombie, but don't feel awful, shockingly. i am hoping to fall asleep and stay asleep until the morning. izzy can go 6 hours without eating but she wakes me up to play. she is getting so incredibly fast, i notice differences in agility and things from day to day. it is amazing.

izzy is still farting wretched farts. so bad. i am so eager to do some spinning, especially some fun halloween yarns. i may do some that have beads or buttons that go along, like a kit for a neckywarmer or something. i know, i talk crap half the time, i am too tired or busy to get it finished. i would like to, though.

i got caught up on my emails, however, i will be behind on blogs forever. the luxe site is not updateable by me because of that stuff they did and i don't want to drag jason, my friend that did the site for me, into a big ordeal when i know he has a girlfriend and big deal job, plus a life, so i don't know what to do. since that update that zencart did, i can't get onto my site and add anything. i would like a gallery, bio, etc, but it will have to wait i guess.

okay, i swear, new photos to-morrow.
mwah mwah mwah
n.

posted by natasha @ 11:27 PM  0 comments

10 September 2007

being pissed on is better than being pissed off

weeeeeee
isobel was on a good stretch of holding her bladder, it was almost odd, really. and then...i had a few major incidents and i always gasp, everytime it happens. gah. otherwise, she is getting fast. here she is with the crocheted thingy i made her to chew on and play with. she likes it. i also dug out the stuffed teething rings that we got for pavel to attempt to redirect him from biting when he was wee, which didn't workout so well. he never really got out of the habit.

i took one of my provigil "pep" pills this morning because i have to get my ass in gear and do some work no matter how tired i feel. at least today i didn't feel horrid from the start. izzy didn't want to sleep, she wanted to play and act crazy (which involves biting my lips, nose and attempting to scratch me in the eye with her really sharp little claws) big fun. i don't drink milk, i have always hated it and was allergic to it as a tot, so i have a hard time telling if she is being fussy with her milk or it is going off, so i end up going down to warm up a new bottle at some ridiculous time and then she doesn't want it anyway. gah! she can climb out of her bag, so i always worry that i won't wake up when she starts doing it, although i am a light sleeper and usually do.

once the pep wears off, i have usually been such a spaz that i have a headache, which i do, and didn't eat (i know why mom's steal their kids' ritilin) it really not only kills your appetite, but it makes you forget to eat, too. i did get some stuff done today, i will try to get you photos to-morrow, i have to pack up lots of stuff to ship, so i may not have time. i am also hoping to make time to visit one of my favorite people in the universe, gabe, who is in the neighborhood of the post office and art supply.

barbe gave me a really cool link for an artist that works in polymer clay. you guys know i am an admitted snob, but i really didn't realize what you can do with polymer clay. one of the nice features that ceramics don't have is that you can use the mica powders and glazes, etc, etc, the whole way around without concern of a big drippy part or it sticking to the kiln. i cannot be trusted with a torch (a semester of metal smithing showed that very clearly), i am way to scatterbrained and can barely use an electric skillet or heat gun without wounding myself. additionally, i have ripped out hair with a flexshaft even though i had it tied back. i lean in to everything really really close. it is a bad habit. when i tattooed i did that too, and when blood is involved, it is a good idea to back the truck up, ya know?

oh! reginald the lion with male pattern baldness has sold to a man in london who has offered reg a position in his blues band, nights out on the town and a place to crash! how cool is that? reg told me that my place sucks and he is very excited to be moving to europe. he may be pissed when he finds out that he will be in a box airmail and not a private jet. still, he gets to live in a really cool place that i imagined i would live when i was an angst filled teen. i may have to make him some pants before he goes, though. i would hate to see him out in the cold rain in his underclothes. wanna have a last look at him before he leaves?
reginald the balding lion

i realized that my cell phone had died because i haven't charged it in a really long time, so if you called my cell and not home number, i am not avoiding you. call me at home, dammit. i probably have a zillion messages. i need an assistant. that doesn't need to get paid. and will wake me up and get me coffee. and poop and feed the kitten. did ya know that they can't poop by themselves until they get bigger? jealous now? also, could ya do my hair? that would rock. and make-up?

oh, lastly...does anyone have texture sheets for polymer clay that they don't want? they aren't that expensive and i can make some myself, but if anyone has some, gimme a shout, kay?

mwah!
n.

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posted by natasha @ 10:38 PM  2 comments

08 September 2007

tough titties.

at the risk of sounding like a bitcher and a moaner (i kinda am though), i will just say that i have been too tired to do really anything. i have been trying to push to at least get something productive done no matter how bad i feel...crochet a necky thing, do the fimo part of buttons in bed, small things, but i get so bummed out and depressed. i know i am hard on myself, but it really is torment to feel so lame. i have the creepycrawlies quite often, which i have had issues with for ages and took zanax for it years ago and had insanely bad memory problems (beyond the usual) so i don't take it. it did help with that stuff though. additionally, from the 2 hour feeding schedule with the baby kitteh, i am just in another world. i have a headache pretty much all the time and have had 2 really bad ones that didn't want to go away and i got panicky that i would have to go to the ER which then puts me down for a couple of days from the drugs they give me. i am really sleepy and tried to avoid getting online, even though my head feels a bit better, but after taking my pain pill, which made the migraine manageable, but i can feel the migraine underneath the pill, if that makes sense. i am nauseous and tired but can't sleep. i have so much that i need to get done and caught up on and i am just so behind and it bums me out. i got super behind on emails (don't even ask about blogs) and then some wholesale orders and listing stuff and packing swaps and things for friends, etc, etc, etc. some people (like katrina, jakie and barbe) are so patient with me it blows me away. i am flaky. i admit it. anyway, here is to hoping i am feeling more normal (in a good way) to-morrow and can get stuff done. if i wake up with a migraine i am going to be seriously pissed off.

in isobel news, she has learned a new gear...reverse! and fast, too. if you shake her toy at her or something she will just run backwards really fast. i was impressed. i showed jake and he cracked up, too. she is climbing her carrier bag and when she is out of it, i lay it on it's side for her and she plays inside of it with the zipper open and will fall asleep in there on her own. we used the same bag for pavel because i had to take him to the tattoo shop with me to feed him, etc, and he was fine sleeping in there, but once he got mobile, he just wanted out. izzy seems to like it in there. her little nest. she does bite, her baby teeth just came in and i try to redirect her with her crocheted toy, but sometimes she will come up to my face and bite my nose or lips, but she does it really gently. odd. pavel bit(es) like he was trying to eat you. not good. at all.

this photo of izzy is from a week ago i think.
me?


i barely slept last night so i am going to try to do that now. wish me luck.

oh, also, i used fimo to make an ergonomic (if ugly) handle for my smaller crochet hooks. i haven't used any of the small ones yet to check it out, but i think it should be better, although i saw that susan bates, my preferred hooks, is making metal hooks with bigger bamboo handles. finally. sheesh.

xo
n.

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posted by natasha @ 1:56 AM  3 comments

06 September 2007

the worst blogger. evah.

isobel 4 weeks old
well, again, for those of you that have raised a child and also done anything else whatsoever (put on makeup, check emails, use the phone, eat) get my kudos. i could never do it. i really couldn't. so, needless to say, the kitten has got me on a strange schedule. i am now attempting feedings every 4 hours instead of every 2, but she gets fussy sometimes and i keep trying to feed her when she does that. also, she is very nocturnal and wants to be up and playing (biting my lips and nose with her sharp baby milk teeth) and farting the grossest farts you have ever ever smelled (i checked online about that and it is normal from the air in the bottle and the fermenting of the milk in the digestive tract) but it is nonstop. seriously, you would swear that she drinks guiness and eats chili dogs and hot wings or something. so bad. sometimes, she will do a burp/fart combo. good thing that she is really cute. peeps is actually sort of interested in her, she will sit near her bag or near her, she is sleeping against the carrier right now, actually, which is odd because she has never liked any other cat. i have been calling isobel mini-peeps because they are both fuzzy. izzy goes right up to peeps with her lack of ability to focus and when she gets right up on her, peeps smacks her on the head or goes for her neck, but is actually rather gentle with her, no claws. it would be nice for peeps to have a kitty friend, you know? anyway, i know you have been wanting photos, so i am giving you some. there are TONS more new ones on flickr. she is a month old now (i think) according to the developmental milestones.

i am incredibly behind on work of any sort, and have been absolutely exhausted, but i felt better today, despite only a couple of hours of sleep. i have made several neckywarmers with the handmade buttons which i will attempt to get listed soon. i haven't done an update in ages and i really really need to. soon. i did a few veggie ones that are nice and soft, too. i can't even remember anything else. here is some eyecandy for ya though.
handmade buttons

thanks for all of the sweet comments and emails, they really make me smile.
mwah.
n.

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posted by natasha @ 11:40 PM  5 comments