my birfday to-morrow?
well, jakie is feeling better, for those that well-wished. we had a low-key weekend and i think the last bit of rest today did him good.
to-morrow is my birfday. jakie got me a dremel that i asked for in advance. i have yet to crack it out, although i did read the manual. seriously. i have stuff that i needed to do with it, but don't remember what at the moment. hm. buttons was one thing.
in other news, after getting orders packed and a dyeing order done, i think i need to attempt to get the house organized and my studio organized. it is making me feel bad about myself, and i have all kinds of interesting old stuff and swaps, etc, that i don't even remember having and haven't given it the respect it deserves (i.e. getting displayed and/or used). it isn't right. i have a ton of it all over. stacked up. i have an expensive and gorgeous diana fayt vase from jakie from a little while ago that was on my window sill in the studio with sticky squares on the base to keep it from falling over and it blew over from the wind somehow (it is a bit of a tippy vase, skinny and top heavy and no lip on the bottom) and it busted in half. it is a clean break, i just need to epoxy it back together, but i keep putting it off, along with everything else i need to do and everytime i look at it, sad and broken on my desk, it makes me feel bad about myself. where my exhaustion/illness/etc and my laziness/disorganization split i don't know. i really don't. it probably sounds stupid to not know, but i don't. i rarely feel energetic, and i always wonder how other people feel on an average day. especially the people like ms. christine that has kids and a house and cranks out so much gorgeous stuff and still runs her business. and the slew of you that do that, too. i haven't forgotten the rest of you...yeah. why can't i be more like that? if i were organized, i would be dangerous. if i had more energy, seriously...the things i would do. i am afraid to commit to new projects or to push for new things because i am never sure what will happen closer to that date and i can't just ditch out of everything. okay, i am going to stop bitching.
on an off-note, we watched the vice presidential "debate" and man...i hate that woman. it isn't nice to say that...but i do. a world leader that doesn't read any newspapers? not good.